Saturday 6/25/11

Today's food log

Time to Refocus

So when I saw this picture it made me cry. I was feeling pretty good about myself and my progress, but this picture still shows that fat girl. I don't see her in the mirror, although I have caught glimpses of her in window reflections. I am so anxious for the outside to show what I see and feel on the inside.

I talked about this with the trainer (after about 2 weeks off of workouts) and realized that I need to come to terms with where I am and where I want to be. We're going to focus on 20 pounds for now. Twenty pounds is doable, right?

Actually I am just going to focus on 2 for this week. I want to be 168 by next Wednesday! I said it! I wrote it! Now I am going to make it happen!!

Slow and Steady....

My weight loss journey has been slowing down but as long as there is forward progress, I am OK with that. Today's weigh in was 173.6. So happy to have not gained any weight back. These plateaus are annoying though, I admit it. Summer is my danger zone. The cookouts and treats and cocktails are my vices. We definitely will be more active as a family though, so my worry is a little bit less. We love to swim, bike and play outdoors as a family. I will just have to make sure to keep a balance.

I am so much stronger than I was when I started. I can see definition in my body that has been missing for quite a while. Now I need to focus on my cushioning. If I can get leaner then everyone else could see the progress I've made too! So far I am down 5% body fat. Paul has lost 3%. I think he's feeling better too. My hope is that he will keep up with the exercise through his busy season. It's going to be harder for him.

Here's looking back from my Sparkpeople blog...
This plateau of mine is kind of making me crazy so today I went back to where I started (this time). Results so far...

Body fat -5%
Weight -16.8 lbs.
Waist -7.25" Boy, I was in denial about this issue!
Hips -3.2"
Thigh -3"
Calf -1.5"
Arm -1"

That's 16 pounds and 16 inches gone forever! The inches totally caught me by surprise. I had no idea I was that much bigger than I am now. Progress! It makes me happy!!!

Bad Blogger

I am not a good blogger. My friend told me this, and I know this.

Feeling a little blue today. I was rocking along, losing about a pound and a half a week but now I am stuck. Life is getting in the way. I am at 178 and have been hovering here for a couple/few weeks now. I know why. But I just don't have the energy to fix what's broke. Hopefully this week will bring about the changes I need to make.

I am stronger than I was. I am lighter than I was. I am able to do more than I was. And, it's finally getting nice and I will be able to get outside more. Getting the bike ready and hopefully able to run outside a little this week.

Start

Weight today: 188 lbs
Exercise: Worked out with Paul & Alex (our trainer) for 1 hour.
Squats, lunges, stretching, shoulders, arms and crunches

Plan for tomorrow: Cardio - 45 minutes

It's my "birthday"

Today is the first day of the rest of my life. I am not an alcoholic, but I AM a food addict. Today is the day that I (and my husband and family) will start on our path to a healthier, leaner lifestyle. My goals are simple and attainable if I stay the course. This is not a diet. I've done plenty of those and know where I always end up. This is going to be the lifestyle that will lead us to a better place.

I found this quote on a page of one of my internet inspirations and it just fits where I am today.

"I shall shape my future. Whether I fail or succeed shall be no man's doing but my own. I am the force; I can clear any obstacle before me. Or I can be lost in the maze. My choice. My responsibility. Win or lose, only I hold the key to my destiny." - Og Mandino

In my mind and heart, I know what this journey will take and the tools that will help me along the way. It's time to put that knowledge and support to the test and just do it!